Idol Stalker Sent Abdul Flowers Before Suicide

Here's what the card said.

Last week, Paula Abdul got flowers with a note signed, "Love, J.T." and the message, "Hope you're doing great. Here's my new cell number." Thinking they had come from her restaurateur boyfriend J.T. Torregiani, Abdul called him asking why he had changed his number, a source close to Abdul tells PEOPLE. When he said he hadn't, Abdul knew immediately who really sent them: ex-American Idol contestant Paula Goodspeed, according to the source. She was found dead this week outside Abdul's home.
Abdul had received more than 100 letters, numerous phone calls and uninvited visits from Goodspeed, the source says. "The flower thing was really scary -- Paula [Abdul] really couldn't handle that. She was terrified," says the source.
Also, PEOPLE has learned, Goodspeed had changed her first name from Sandra to Paula.
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Paula Abdul is cute but certainly not worth dying for. Poor sad little Sandra, a gentle soul you were, if your face is any indication, but a hurting one. Actually, I like you more than the lady you so adored. For all your problems you look like the one with the bigger IQ. So sorry it was not enough to save your life.









Wow. I had wondered about the Paula name thing and you just confirmed what I suspected. This is such a tragic story and my heart goes out to Ms. Goodspeeds family, but also to Paula Abdul. She clearly wanted the attention of Paula and in someways she has now made herself unforgettable.