Radical Mommy: British reality star and mom of two Jane Goody was recently given only four weeks to live. Not only did it break my (somewhat hardened) heart to think about a mother knowing she was dying and having to leave her children, it made me think about what I would do if I were ever to receive such devastating news.
I even offered to write a story about it.
Once I started, it was too painful. Too real. I couldn't write this, I decided.
But it kept nagging at me. If I was THAT resistant to even thinking about it, then it was something I HAD to write. Minutes after I went back to my keyboard, I ended up in tears.
I couldn't do this alone. I asked my co-workers what they would do if they found out that they had just 31 days left on this earth (as we know it). The responses were incredibly heartfelt and very moving. The thing I found most surprising is that almost every single person said they'd choose to take a trip and leave home in their dying days.
Here's what everyone had to say:
Me (mom of 4-year-old): I would take a trip to Tuscany with my husband, son, sister, her family and our dogs. I would ban all TVs, videos, computers, radios, books, etc. ... I would spend three weeks with them talking, crying and laughing, and then I would say goodbye to my sister, my nieces and my brother-in-law and spend my final days with my son and husband. I would want to be lying in bed snuggling my son when I died.
momlogic's Gillian: I would gather up all my family and closest friends in the world and take them all on a vacation. It wouldn't have to be exotic, just a big house where we could all sit around and BE. Together. I'd then kick everyone out -- except for my husband -- and make sure he knew how much I loved him and how much his presence in my life fulfilled me. Then I'd have sex for days!
momlogic's Julie (mom of two, age 5 and 8): That is so sad. I have two kids, just like Jane does. If I only had four weeks to live, I would spend every waking moment with my kids and my husband. I would write letters to my kids that they could read in the future. Maybe I would even make video messages for them. I was with my mom when she died of cancer and I know how tough this can be to say goodbye. It is so heartbreaking. I really feel for Jane and her family right now.
momlogic's Jill (mom of two, age 13 and 15): Throw away my BlackBerry, quit my job, travel to someplace beautiful and remote with my family where I would really listen to everything my children said and truly live in the moment.
momlogic's Talitha: I would travel and put everything on my credit card. I would go to some island and just hang out there, then come back, say goodbye to my family. I would write a book filled with letters to leave behind for my boyfriend, family and friends. I would try to come to terms with leaving.
momlogic's Jenny (mom of 17-month-old): OMG. This is so sad and I can't even imagine. If I had a month, I would write down as many memories of my life as I could and write my wish list for my son. I would tell him about his family through my eyes and about what kind of a person I know he will be. I'd have long conversations with my parents and thank them for everything. I would talk to my husband about the love we shared and the love I hope he'll find again. I'd take all my dear friends and family with me for a week to the Amalfi Coast -- and we'd sit on a cobblestone street and drink lots of wine and eat delicious pasta.
momlogic's Lindsey: I would gather my family and closest friends and rent a house in Mexico on the beach for a month. We would spend everyday in the sun, laughing, sharing stories, BBQing and relaxing. There is nothing more important than my family and friends -- and being by the ocean is the most relaxing thing in the world to me. I couldn't think of a better way to spend my last month on earth.
momlogic's Lisa: Say sorry to the people I hurt. Really help 10 people -- do something significant that would change their lives. Take my parents to Italy. Forgive myself for all the things I did wrong. Write a small book of what I learned. Throw an amazing party for my friends and family
momlogic's Tristan: I would stop working and fly to the Cayman Islands. I would bring my family, friends and dogs and spend the rest of my days on the beach, in the hammock. I would want to be surrounded by laughter, eat and drink, walk into the ocean whenever I want and watch the sunset each night. If I could chose how to die, it would be to just drift off to sleep, in that hammock, with the people I love around me.
momlogic's Cambria: I would go to Europe immediately because I've never been. I've always wanted to go and have always put if off. Once I'm back, I'd spend the rest of my money to take my family, friends, and pets to a ranch where we could all play around 'til my final days. I would have to go Zorbing. You know, those big clear ball things people ride down hills inside of? I'd do a bunch of extreme sports I've always been afraid of, because I would have nothing to lose! Once I've done that, I'd make sure to get myself to the beach before I croak so I could die looking at the ocean.
momlogic's Vanessa: I would try and travel with my family to see/experience as much as possible with them.
What would you do if you only had a month to live?
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