Briana Mordente: Being pregnant for the first time is surreal. At first. Once you get over the initial shock, and once you've exhausted those long "We're about to embark on something magical" talks with your husband, you're left to go on about your days as usual. Well, almost usual.
There are things that are different now that I'm pregnant. The world gets drunk around me, without me ... I used to enjoy cocktail hour with my friends when the wine would flow freely. Or margaritas. But now that I'm pregnant, there are no more cocktails at any hour. Food is what gets my attention now. Is it time to eat yet? And if it isn't time to eat yet, when do I get to eat next? I actually find at dinnertime that I'm sad because I know it's the last meal of the night and I have no other meals to look forward to. Except dessert, if there's room. Those are the special nights.
And speaking of food ... I also have a little bit of food guilt. One part of me wants to eat whatever I want because, after all, I'm pregnant! I'm "eating for two"! But another part of me feels I'll regret doing that later. Not to mention all the weight I've already gained! Plus, when I do stuff myself to my heart's content, my stomach gets really hard and I feel sort of sick. To stuff, or not to stuff, that is an everyday question for me ...
The doctor said I could, but is it really safe to color my hair ... ? I made the mistake of going on the Internet to find out if it was safe to color my hair before I saw my doctor. If you've ever done that, then you know there's a plethora of information on the subject that never gives you a concrete answer. It's pretty much split down the middle -- with half the mothers saying it's "fine" and they did it and their baby is super healthy, and the other half declaring that if you're so vain that you need to color your hair while you're pregnant and risk any tiny little harm it might do, then maybe you should reconsider being a mom. Ouch! Even though my doctor said I could, I still feel guilty each time I color, wondering, hoping, that it truly is okay.
I miss my clothes sooooo much ... I miss my old body! I'm in that awkward stage of pregnancy where I don't look very pregnant, but more like I had a couple of burritos for lunch. People who know me, of course, know I look pregnant, but I don't think it's totally obvious to strangers just yet. I hate the look of maternity clothes, but all my regular clothes don't fit! I have a closet full of clothes that are useless to me now! They look so lonely hanging there, lifeless, in the closet. I know they miss me too.
These are all temporary worries, I know, and trivial as well, compared to the wonderful little life growing inside me. Everyone who is a mom says it's the most wonderful journey they have ever embarked on in all their experiences. Until it happens, I miss sitting in my favorite jeans, wine in hand, with my worry-free, freshly colored hair.
|Briana grew up in the Hollywood Hills and has remained close to the glitz and glamour of Los Angeles ever since. After graduating from UCLA with a degree in sociology, Briana spent the next decade working for Premiere Radio Networks, where she applied her own unique spin to writing entertainment and celebrity news for disc jockeys to use around the country. Her most notable work could often be found in "The Girly Spot," which specialized in women's issues, strange observations and funny anecdotes. She and her husband will become first-time parents in November.|