Karyn Bryant: T-minus seven days. My little munchkin will be a preschooler this time next week, and I can hardly stand the wait. I know I'll probably cry when we drop her off, and I'll have pangs of guilt and fits of worry. I just don't know if those will come before or after the celebration dance in honor of the reclaiming of my life.
Since I don't currently have a full-time job, I've been home with Aurora 95% of her first three years. Those have been some wonderful and special times, but I'm really ready to get back to being Karyn for the better part of the day. Because Karyn gets the things done that Mommy doesn't have time for.
That room with the footpath through piles of paperwork and stacks of random stuff collected over the past 36 months -- you know, the office -- will soon be a shining, sparkling-clean bastion of inspiration. (At least, my side will. Hubby's gonna have to fend for himself.) Those annoying 5 pounds of BBQ food and ice cream that are trying to settle in for the oncoming cooler weather? Hell no! They have to go, and they will, since I can go to the gym and stay for a while without stressing over the Kid's Club bullies.
The empty picture frames in the basement can finally get filled with precious memories. I can organize my closet. I can study my Portuguese more often. Read more. Write more. Oh my god -- I just remembered that I used to have hobbies! Stop the insanity!
I'm in no way suggesting that all of this will happen by the end of September, or even October, since I plan on kicking career stuff into overdrive as well. But I'm inspired to make some of these things happen ASAP.
Those of you who have been where I'm going: am I overly ambitious? Am I overestimating what it's going to be like to get back 6 hours a day?
|Karyn Bryant is a television personality who's hosted shows on networks such as CNN, TNT, VH1, and MTV. She's currently a reporter for Showtime Championship Boxing and CBS' Saturday Night Fights, and the EVP/Director of MMAheat.com, an online destination for fans of MMA and pop culture. She lives in Los Angeles with her husband and daughter.|