Tell the truth -- what would I find if I opened drawers in your house?
Lori Curley: Pens, stamps, an empty bottle of vitamins, dice, matches, birthday cards, baseball cards, shells, rocks, pennies, and wrapping paper are among the contents of what we call the junk drawer. I recently opened another drawer in our dining room that is not the junk drawer and discovered almost the same contents -- wrapping paper, birthday cards, CDs, flyers from school, pens, pencils, candles, and a few tipless crayons. Then I opened a drawer in the hallway and found, again, almost the same contents but with a few maps.
These drawers cause me weekly anxiety attacks. I will be looking for something I put away -- something important -- and I will pull open a drawer and study the horizontal avalanche until the blood drains from my head and I become weak at the knees. I imagine that I will NEVER find that stupid receipt for that stupid sweater I never should have bought in the first place from the stupid store that only gives stupid store credit (without oxygen, my vocabulary sinks to third grade).
But last week, I had an epiphany, or more accurately, I reached Nirvana. I opened a drawer and instead of anxiety, I found tranquility. I became one with the drawer. I saw the infinite possibilities and the pleasurable past all at once. I saw the parties and the tax bills and the days at the beach. I accepted the drawer as a journey one takes and cannot organize, ever.
I removed the deflated balloon tied to a ribbon, the hat belonging to Playmobile people, and the fake credit cards. I sifted calmly through the pennies and the paper clips, and before long I found the batteries I needed. I was relaxed. I took a deep breath and returned the balloon, the hat, and the fake credit cards.
Tomorrow I will contemplate the dust and the dog hair. Hhhummmmmm.
|Lori Curley, champion mother of two middle-school teenagers, resides in South Orange, NJ. She holds a Masters in Education and has been teaching writing at the college level for 7 years. But can she find a job as a high school English teacher? Or will she pull her hair out first?|