"I was a terrorized kid," he said. "I was petrified of my dad. It wasn't so much getting the sh*t beat out of me, or getting my arm broken, or getting kicked or whatever or punched; it was the in-between time. It was the fear of that happening again."
Jesse continued, "He beat my ass pretty good a bunch of times. I just remember, like, clenched-teeth, strained-neck look on his face. My whole childhood, I never had a chance to be a kid ... I was always scared."
He added, "I tripped over this little low fence wire and snapped my wrist, and I remember my dad laughed at me when I hit the ground and called me a dummy."
Jesse said that this may have led to his cheating: "I grew up with a huge amount of shame and fear and abandonment on my shoulders from a very young age," he said, "and I think, you know, the way my mind rationalized [cheating], 'Well, you know, I might as well do whatever I can to like run her off, 'cause she is going to find out what I am anyway and leave me anyway.' The struggle within myself for the things that I did ... to damage marriage and my life and everything else, it's all me. I'm doing it because, you know, I've basically never felt good enough for anyone."
(James' father denies the abuse claims.)
Does this make you feel any different about Jesse James -- or do you think he's just playing the blame game?