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Balancing Act: I Had 3 Kids While Taking the Bar Exam

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Vanessa Olivier, mother of three, shares her journey of finding balance in her role as a mother, a partner -- and in her position as a prosecutor. From

Caribbean-American community, being an attorney yields a commodity worth more than money: it offered power. Attorneys were respected. Attorneys were helpers. Attorneys were agents of change. I was sold on the idea, and by middle school I began working on my biggest case ever: Vanessa Olivier (working class Black girl) vs. The Status Quo.

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knew I'd have to work hard, specifically as a Black young woman from a working class family, to make it to and through law school. For many years I was the textbook example of who was "able, willing and worthy" of becoming an attorney. I went to the best college preparatory schools, excelled academically and had the confidence and savvy demeanor necessary to schmooze with people from all walks of life. Most importantly, I was a hustler.

I worked hard to earn extra income to support myself -- and even helped out my family when I could. By my mid-twenties I could see the light. I was in a dual degree program working on my law degree and a Masters in Education. My career and personal life were on a great track. I was happy, fulfilled and eager to earn the title "esquire." I didn't know another one would come first..."mommy."

During my third year of law school I found out that I was pregnant. Though the timing wasn't ideal, it was divine. My choice to become a mother was also pragmatic. I figured I could still finish up school and take the bar examination. Unfortunately, it wasn't as easy. Due to health conditions I was placed on bed rest -- which meant I could not attend class. Still, I didn't want pregnancy to deter my path, so I became my own advocate. I informed my professors about my condition and negotiated a new contract. I received tapes of lectures. Classmates visited me for group projects. Proctors even administered my exams at my home while I was in bed. I literally finished law school on my back.

After school I landed a job and began to prep for the bar exam. By this time, my son was born and I found it hard to leave him to study. Not so surprisingly, I didn't pass that bar. Undeterred, I immediately began prepping for the next licensing test, and a few months before the exam I found out that I was expecting another bundle of joy. Due to my high-risk pregnancy and the stress of taking the test (spending hours sitting up, lugging books around, etc.) the doctor suggested that I sit out of the exam. I followed her orders and took the test when my second son was a few months old. I failed it again. Sadly, this loss had dire consequences.

Since I wasn't barred I was demoted to a paralegal. That resulted in a pay cut, which meant bringing home less money when I had more mouths to feed. Did I mention I had another baby on the way? Baby number three and no post-degree certification was a recipe for disaster. After a lot of reflection, I set a new game plan. I took time off from work to focus on the test. I contacted other attorneys who were mothers and asked for tips. I enlisted my family and friends, telling them about my need to pass the bar, the amount of study time it required, and I shared my ultimate goals.

When I finally took and passed the bar I was ecstatic. I knew I could not have done it without my mate, family and friends -- and kicking mommy guilt to the curb. I had to be okay with sequestering myself in a library to study for 90% of my time. I didn't even come home the week before the exam; I spent all of my time preparing for the test.

Today I'm balancing being a mother, partner and my position as a prosecutor. I love my children and finding the time to spend with them is currently my biggest hurdle. I know I will only have their undivided attention for the next 3-4 years, and I want to capture every moment. In order to accomplish that goal I'm looking at opportunities that will make our schedules compatible. It's funny how your life can change. A few years ago all thought about was leaving home and starting my career as a prosecutor. Now that I'm a lawyer, and a mother, all I think about is getting back home. I guess that's because I no longer just dream for myself, I also have three little ones to live for.

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Cheri June 15, 2011, 9:14 AM

OMG!!!! Vanessa Olivier, you are my twin and you inspire me…. I too am studying for the NY bar, work, and have 3 kids. I had all of my children while attending law school and walked across the stage of my graduation 9 months pregnant. I graduated in 2008 but I did not have the time to fully commit to studying. I took the bar in 2010, but now that I look back, I half-a** studied and failed. I am beginning to study again for the Feb. 2012 exam. Reading your story reminds me that if I am completely committed I WILL PASS… Also, it reminds me that I am not the only one that feels “mommy guilt” but I have to push that aside because when I pass, it will benefit my whole family (hubby and kids)…. Thank You SO MUCH for sharing.

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