Absidi: So remember how I just found out one of my friends is pregnant? Well, I go to check my e-mail ... and guess what ... ANOTHER one of my friends is pregnant!! What the hell is that?? I was just getting over the shock of the first friend. So that makes a total of 4 pregnant women I have to see at least once a week. Man, it sucks!

Anyways, I have been taking the ovulation tests. I've never tracked my ovulation cycle before, so I'm learning as I go. The First Response Ovulation Test says that I should start tracking on Day 10 of my cycle, which would be the 15th. But ...

#1 I can't wait that long because this whole process terrifies and excites me all at once.
#2 Just in case I ovulate early, I don't want to miss it, and ...
#3 My hubby leaves next week, so I am praying that I ovulate before he leaves.

He wasn't supposed to leave until the end of June, but everything is always changing in the Good Ol' Marine Corps! I am so scared that Joel is going to be gone while I am ovulating. Knowing my luck, I will ovulate the day he leaves or something. Oh, I was telling my hubby that he is most likely going to be gone while I ovulate and it is going to defeat the whole purpose of this process. I was getting kind of upset because I was mad that he was going to be gone. So then he turns to me and goes, "Can we just save some of my stuff or something? Can I like put some in a cup and save it for when you are ovulating?" I couldn't help it, I just burst out laughing!! I remembered Meredith asking that question and I thought it was so cute and funny that he asked it too. I told him that we asked Dr. Ahlering that question and he said no. Then he said he was just kidding ... but I think he was serious, ha ha. I am just going to keep praying that I ovulate before he leaves.

On another note, I mentioned in one of my other blogs about how a woman had e-mailed me and was telling me her story and stuff ... well, we have been talking back and forth. It's so nice being able to talk with someone who knows what I am going through. It's funny because as soon as I found out my two friends were pregnant, I immediately e-mailed her. It's weird for me because I don't even know her, but I feel like she is going through exactly what I am, which makes it so easy for me to open up to her. I can talk to her about stuff my friends just wouldn't understand ... just like when I found out the first girl was pregnant. I e-mailed the girl I've been talking to ... she simply says, "I'm sorry." That's all I wanted to hear, someone who understands what it feels like ... then I called my closest friend out here, and she goes, "Are you serious? Wow, but wait, if I get pregnant are you going to be mad at me?" And I felt my heart sink. I felt like shit because I don't want anyone to think I am going to be mad at them for getting pregnant. I find myself retracting from my friends, and confiding in the women I meet through Momlogic. Is that weird?

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